Seriously going nutz.

Damn it!

I wouldn't even care abt anything if u weren't my frend.

Just freaking spit out EVERYTHING u want to say.

We ARE in a GROUP,

If u have anything u dun like, spit it out.

OUR St John is GOING to fall!

Dammit, if WE can't work as a TEAM.

St John WILL fall.

你要我怎样去跟你讲话？

U lost hope of something that we used to love.

And seriously,

If u told me wat u were thinking,

None of tis would have happen.

U noe wat?

I'm am really REALLY tired now.

Tired of worrying

Aiya, will she be ok with tis?

Aiya, will she be mad if they did tis?

I feel like juz letting everything go.

So tat i can feel free.

So tat i wouldn't have so many problems.

Did you ever read tis thing of mine?

Did you ever wanna noe wat am i feeling?

Did you ever see me as a frend?

Did you? DID YOU?

Ya tis words IS sharp,

But I've told u be4, if u have anything

Call me, text me or even email me.

Dun freaking care if i have other things to do.

WAT ARE FRENDS FOR?!

To freaking be there for each other!

Dammit!

You make me feel like, you can't come to me.

Tat u dun consider me as a frend.

YOU, YOU!

I NOE u have lots of things tat u wanna spit out.

Please, juz hlp me out a little bit.

Let me feel like, I did not waste all my time and energy,

On building up tis few years of relationship.

Wake me up, and tell me wat I am writing now is all wrong

我一直在想，为什么，为什么！

为什么，我们的路就是那么难走。

为什么我们不能顺顺利利地走？

一件一件的事慢慢发生。

问题是，这些事不是把我们拉得更近。

而是把我们推得更远。

也许你觉得我要求的太多，

你就找别人说，好过你什么都闷在里面。

请你不要问为什么我这样，

我只是不懂要怎样面对了。