发现到晚上要睡觉的时候，
特别有感触..
怎么说就是看到一张张吊着的照片
就想起了姐妹
想起多么欢乐+悲伤的时光
也不能否认这个时候又是我'想多多'的时候~

你，已经成为我生命中的一部分了
虽然会两天没联络
但至少我有信心你，也会想起我
不是我不想在主动
而是想让自己想开一点
不要老是粘着你
暧昧，果然好委屈
再次听回暧昧这首歌的时候觉得
诶，我终于明白他在唱什么了
直到等待失去意义..
希望真的不会有这一天
因为我相信那天会是我最down最hurt的一天

Assignments are all done and over
wats left is finals
crappy thing is jap class is off
literally got kicked out cuz it's full wth?
and they expect us to take both business and econs
damn right! how the hell are we going to manage 2 heavy subs?
others get to ace their language and we have to work our butts off for these 2?
damn shitty yo!
us, we yea almost all my classmates who register for jap kena
we're trying to make some noise and see if there's anything that can be done..

Screw everything I haven even start studying..
shud get my head straight and start revision if I wana get the 20k scholarship
speaking of scholarship there's even more crappy things
dun even wanna mention it if not my post would all be negative stuff when it is already negative enough..
oh wells, time for bed
nights world

♥ u babe
#X

Finals are coming soon
most of our assignments are due next monday
one more week
i can do tis

We finished our video shoot today
officially call it a wrap
left the editing now
i can do tis, i noe i can

Miss u guys
really miss u guys
this few days has been really tough
already lots of tears were shed
but at least i noe u're always there
thanks and i love u all

♥ u babe
#X

I wont deny that i already miss you
but i have no choice but to restrain myself
i always knew that
there would be a time when this will come
i never wanted it to come
i always wanted to just avoid it
because it's just so painful..
apart of that
i don't have that much courage..
i really dunno wer am i going to find the courage when the time comes
i guess i just have to
cuz its not benefiting both of us
it's been so sweet and cozy
it's been all i've wanted
but i can't have it like tis
its too invisible, too unrealistic, too insecure..
sorry for being selfish but i want you
but really not like tis...

♥ u babe
#X

原来这些年来
我已经无形中的依靠着你了
本来以为自己就是
这样无依无靠，坚强地站着
可我没发现到，我其实已经倾向你了...


我，
真的寂寞吗？
寂寞这两个字有点陌生
我这些年来是真的寂寞吗？
而我这些年来紧紧的抓着
是因为自己寂寞，想再次填补空洞吗？
我怎么没发现到...


突然觉得如果当初没遇见你
有多么的好
现在的我，也许不会在这里罗里罗嗦了
遇见你，是好是坏真的很难评分
因为你而失去了自己
因为你而搞乱了自己的思维
因为你而看不清自己
值得吗？


多希望有人能帮帮我
帮我指对方向，多么好啊
多希望自己能消失一段时间
寻找回自己，再向前冲...
现在只能说
娴
加油吧..

Haven updated in awhile..
didn't have the drive or the mood to
and now i'm here..

This blog, is full of all my emotions and thoughts
which not everyone or maybe no one noes about
i write when i'm down
i write when i'm confused
i write when i'm lost..
in hope that maybe u will noe wat i am going through

Who's the u?
who ever i'm referring to..
never liked to write out who am i talking about
because deep down, u noe and i myself noe who u are..




College has been quite busy with lots of video projects
and the super duper lazy me is kinda struggling
wer's the drive, the motivation
i think i lost that since a long time ago..
i didn't really have the motivation to study for SPM
and see wat i got..
tis is only my foundation year, wat's gona happen during my degree?
so scary juz to think of it..



So close, yet so far..
i do not noe whether we're close, or we're far apart..
sometimes i feel so close to u and yet sometimes so far..
i never understood u
never knew wat u liked, wat u dislike
all i knew was wat i felt..

Now, i feel like i'm clinging on to something so..
something that i really can't see
i don't noe wer it will take me
i feel so insecure...


无缘无故，没理由的流了眼泪
是不是最近太压力
还是又想起你我之间有多么的模糊
我不是像表面那么坚强
你不知道我内心有多么的脆弱
因为一句话，一个字
就能让本小姐流泪
饶了我吧
若要抓着我就请你抓紧
若没意思抓着我就请你松手，
好让我我慢慢地飘走
慢慢的疗伤，再慢慢的寻找下一个幸福...